It's been awhile since I last posted. Last November I almost lost my daughter in a diabetic coma. She is alive and well now, praise God. This happened 14 months after losing my son. As my daughter fought to get her life in order and healthy again I began reviewing our time together. My daughter is in CA and I am in SC not very handy! In the last ten years we've seen one another four days here and five there. Not much and no real quality time. This needed to change.
I called my daughter and asked if she thought we could get along together for about three to four weeks for some mother/daughter time. One of us speaks oranges the other apples! My daughter was so thrilled and excited!! I guess when your children hit middle age they get it or us. We talked about all the girlie things we could do and the shopping etc.
Later I thought I really needed a vacation since the last three years have been so nuts and I don't believe times will be better next year. I checked on line and booked us five days in Maui!! I am thrilled. My daughter is well...off the charts!
I am a senior and very white. What was called shark bait in my day. Checking out spray tanning (upon hair stylists recommendation) I have become confused, so watched a u-tube which helped. I still am curious about what to do with my boobs. Since becoming a senior they have quite taken on a life of their own! Should I wear an old swimsuit? Go nude? If I go nude and there isn't any boob support I will have white under them. Do I throw them over my shoulders as I turn? I can see this is going to be quite interesting.
I will leave soon for my special time with a special daughter. We may or may not be able to do this again. I do know one thing though - each of us will always have this visit and vacation to remember!! Pray we don't kill one another in the process. Aloha!!
Friday, August 10, 2012
Thursday, January 12, 2012
The Step Off a Ten Story Building
Three years ago I stepped off a ten story building and put the fall into the hand of God. The building is known as my control of my life and the insurance of my life because of my job. Because of my position. Because of my abilities to perform my job. I have many medical problems and had been able to will myself to work despite my physical pain. The time came when my will could no longer sustain me and I had to recognize my inabilities and take ownership.
I have been a reborn Christian forty years. Member of a church and attended regularly. Gave of my time and am a tither. The last twenty years I have been trying to turn over my life to God. This is more than just belief and faith. I wanted and needed to trust God with my life! I had no idea what would happen to me and my world once I left my position and employment to go on disability. I prayed and gave it all to God to handle in His time and in His way. I did ask to please not let me hit bottom if possible. So I jumped and began the free fall!
Passing the first floor was a since of relief and excitement! Relief of work stress and the excitement of seeing God's hand in my life. I praise Him everyday for His faithfulness to me. Yes, God is faithful to His children as we should be to ours. Hubby asked when will this check arrive, has such-and-such been approved, etc.. My answer? I don't know, God is working on it. Don't get me wrong I didn't just let things slide. I did do the part I was responsible for and continue to do so. God has fought every insurance and legal battle. God has provided every financial need to the penny. I don't have extra but I do not worry. Every time a financial need arises He is there with the answer. Thank you Jesus!
Sixty days ago my medical insurance expired and no other insurance company would pick me up. I thought Medicare would cover but no for another six months. God has seen to it that my doctors have lowered my visit costs and lowered it further than other patients, I see very specialized doctors that are very expensive. Even this lower rate with two of my drugs equals the monthly insurance payments I had been paying. One drug that is very costly was switched another brand. This new brand does not work as well but there are no generics but affordable. That leaves one drug with no generic or alternative company and is very costly. My discounted pharmacy rate is $200.00 a month. This is not affordable. I do have mortgage and other bills. I just found out yesterday that my Medicare has been approved and goes into affect in May. Today I called the drug company and have been approved for their "help" program. I expected another hundred off but - get this- it is going to be free!!! Thank you Lord!!
God has seen that once I truly was willing to jump off the ten story building of pride and let Him handle my life he has does provide every need in my life. I never HIT bottom. I landed safely and walk in His steps. I enjoy His love and have the joy and peace in my life that can only come from God.
I have no idea what your ten story building is. This is just the story of my ten story building and a leap of faith. Have a truly blessed day!
I have been a reborn Christian forty years. Member of a church and attended regularly. Gave of my time and am a tither. The last twenty years I have been trying to turn over my life to God. This is more than just belief and faith. I wanted and needed to trust God with my life! I had no idea what would happen to me and my world once I left my position and employment to go on disability. I prayed and gave it all to God to handle in His time and in His way. I did ask to please not let me hit bottom if possible. So I jumped and began the free fall!
Passing the first floor was a since of relief and excitement! Relief of work stress and the excitement of seeing God's hand in my life. I praise Him everyday for His faithfulness to me. Yes, God is faithful to His children as we should be to ours. Hubby asked when will this check arrive, has such-and-such been approved, etc.. My answer? I don't know, God is working on it. Don't get me wrong I didn't just let things slide. I did do the part I was responsible for and continue to do so. God has fought every insurance and legal battle. God has provided every financial need to the penny. I don't have extra but I do not worry. Every time a financial need arises He is there with the answer. Thank you Jesus!
Sixty days ago my medical insurance expired and no other insurance company would pick me up. I thought Medicare would cover but no for another six months. God has seen to it that my doctors have lowered my visit costs and lowered it further than other patients, I see very specialized doctors that are very expensive. Even this lower rate with two of my drugs equals the monthly insurance payments I had been paying. One drug that is very costly was switched another brand. This new brand does not work as well but there are no generics but affordable. That leaves one drug with no generic or alternative company and is very costly. My discounted pharmacy rate is $200.00 a month. This is not affordable. I do have mortgage and other bills. I just found out yesterday that my Medicare has been approved and goes into affect in May. Today I called the drug company and have been approved for their "help" program. I expected another hundred off but - get this- it is going to be free!!! Thank you Lord!!
God has seen that once I truly was willing to jump off the ten story building of pride and let Him handle my life he has does provide every need in my life. I never HIT bottom. I landed safely and walk in His steps. I enjoy His love and have the joy and peace in my life that can only come from God.
I have no idea what your ten story building is. This is just the story of my ten story building and a leap of faith. Have a truly blessed day!
Friday, December 30, 2011
Grammy Time
I can't believe a year has passed!! I am still a baby hog and lovin' it! Nola (grand baby) loves her Grammy. I have discovered the joy of being a grandparent. I can be silly, playful, curious anything to since her life. She is all important to me. Nola is so comfy I am able to relax her enough to nap or sleep. Grand parenting is so much better than parenting!!
My daughter Sarah in CA went into a coma in mid-November. What a rush!! I flew out and she had come to when I took off and back in ICU upon my landing. Sarah's roommate picked me and took me to the hospital. I walked in that room to see a skeleton of what was my daughter. I knew she had been ill a couple of weeks but I did not expect to see her emanated. It turns out Sarah is now a type 1 diabetic. She had a wonderful team of doctors and nurses. I was there everyday on adrenalin. A week later on Thanksgiving I flew back home. Sarah was home and doing so much better. One thing I did notice was that the better Sarah became the worse I was becoming! Flying back was extremely painful and it took another week at home to get my back to calm back down again.
My niece became engaged and married my best friend's son that I introduced her to. It was a whirlwind romance that should be a movie. This is the first family wedding that the family was going to actually attend. Talk about your wedding drama!! The wedding turned out beautiful and everyone has relaxed and enjoyed it all.
God has been extremely good to me and my family. It gives me such hope to see His mighty hand in my life. As you can see life is a trail. 2011 has been a year of meadows, a thoughtful path turning into hills to climb up then run down the other side! Can't wait to see 2012 with my family and God's loving hand. Happy New Year and God Bless.
My daughter Sarah in CA went into a coma in mid-November. What a rush!! I flew out and she had come to when I took off and back in ICU upon my landing. Sarah's roommate picked me and took me to the hospital. I walked in that room to see a skeleton of what was my daughter. I knew she had been ill a couple of weeks but I did not expect to see her emanated. It turns out Sarah is now a type 1 diabetic. She had a wonderful team of doctors and nurses. I was there everyday on adrenalin. A week later on Thanksgiving I flew back home. Sarah was home and doing so much better. One thing I did notice was that the better Sarah became the worse I was becoming! Flying back was extremely painful and it took another week at home to get my back to calm back down again.
My niece became engaged and married my best friend's son that I introduced her to. It was a whirlwind romance that should be a movie. This is the first family wedding that the family was going to actually attend. Talk about your wedding drama!! The wedding turned out beautiful and everyone has relaxed and enjoyed it all.
God has been extremely good to me and my family. It gives me such hope to see His mighty hand in my life. As you can see life is a trail. 2011 has been a year of meadows, a thoughtful path turning into hills to climb up then run down the other side! Can't wait to see 2012 with my family and God's loving hand. Happy New Year and God Bless.
Wednesday, April 27, 2011
Baby Hog
Baby Hog is something new to me. I've not heard this phrase and wasn't quite sure whether it is a complement. I first heard this phrase applied tp me this last Sunday (Easter). I had decided to work in the nursery at church. It was Easter and busy in the nursery and decided the extra volunteer was needed. Besides my granddaughter was there and honestly, I wanted to keep an eye on her care.
It was when the service was over I was called a Baby Hog by who I am not quite sure. I asked someone and I was told take it as a compliment; and so I did. I have since discovered it is meant to be mean. This is very painful to me. I offer to work in the nursery on one of the busiest Sunday's and I am called something mean because I care about my granddaughter and felt it was the families place to be part of the service.
Today Wednesday I called to see I could drop by for a visit and take them to lunch. I was told great. I was dumbfounded to find I was not to hold my granddaughter or play with her during the entire time. My presence was shunned immediately after lunch.
When did it become a problem that children can only have so much love and any extra tossed away? This whole experience is very painful to me. Children are not to be used as a carrot and stick approach! If I have hurt anyone's fellings or made an err this is not constructive.
I now have pulled away. I can not be allowed to love my grandbaby in a helter skelter way.
It was when the service was over I was called a Baby Hog by who I am not quite sure. I asked someone and I was told take it as a compliment; and so I did. I have since discovered it is meant to be mean. This is very painful to me. I offer to work in the nursery on one of the busiest Sunday's and I am called something mean because I care about my granddaughter and felt it was the families place to be part of the service.
Today Wednesday I called to see I could drop by for a visit and take them to lunch. I was told great. I was dumbfounded to find I was not to hold my granddaughter or play with her during the entire time. My presence was shunned immediately after lunch.
When did it become a problem that children can only have so much love and any extra tossed away? This whole experience is very painful to me. Children are not to be used as a carrot and stick approach! If I have hurt anyone's fellings or made an err this is not constructive.
I now have pulled away. I can not be allowed to love my grandbaby in a helter skelter way.
Friday, March 18, 2011
Trails of Life
I have come to the conclusion that life is like walking down a trail. I love walking in the woods hearing life crunch beneath my every step as I move forward. It reminds me how fragile life is, how temporary, how recycled! Then there is the freshness of smells. One can actually smell the life in trees, bushes and the ground itself. Stop close your eyes and just breath it all in and it will heighten your senses.
Then there are the inclines. Some are slight and barely noticeable. Some are straighter, sharper to the crest. Some are straight then curve or turn as we meander in the cool of shade up to the crest. Some are straight but walking in mud. We hold on to objects for stability so not to slide backwards. Times we humbly fall to our knees in the mire. Some are sand dunes where our steps are angled as we make our way in heavy steps to the crest in the heat. We no sooner relish the fact that we are seasoned hikers when we stumble over a bared root or the ground shifts and slides beneath our feet1
Then we have these same trails in various climates, times of days and of course seasons. There are times we are alone. Times with friends and loved ones. Some times we walk in a crowd of people and notice nothing but the steps we take.
I think my journey here will be my walks in the country.
Then there are the inclines. Some are slight and barely noticeable. Some are straighter, sharper to the crest. Some are straight then curve or turn as we meander in the cool of shade up to the crest. Some are straight but walking in mud. We hold on to objects for stability so not to slide backwards. Times we humbly fall to our knees in the mire. Some are sand dunes where our steps are angled as we make our way in heavy steps to the crest in the heat. We no sooner relish the fact that we are seasoned hikers when we stumble over a bared root or the ground shifts and slides beneath our feet1
Then we have these same trails in various climates, times of days and of course seasons. There are times we are alone. Times with friends and loved ones. Some times we walk in a crowd of people and notice nothing but the steps we take.
I think my journey here will be my walks in the country.
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